chapter 1 - heartbeat

"It's past midnight "

He didn't turn to me and when he spoke, his back was still the only thing of him I could see.

I nodded as I slid into place beside him, my arm resting on the railing in front of me. Water rolled off the walls with a gentle swishing sound, the ocean settles, the air settles, I hear only the sound of a sleeping sea, I gaze upon the water below me, the sea below calmer than it had been. The street lamps flickered forlorn amidst the swirling of snow and rain. overhead thick heavy clouds looked blearily down upon the quite sea. The streets have been blanketed in snow, but not the soft white powder where children played and built snowman, but rather the damp grayish substance that mirrored the depressing skies.

"It is." 

I struggles for words to say. I sighed, I nearly cry because of the pain. But, I thought I had no more tears to shed. Entire year had passed and yet, I still didn't have something that as known as 'heart beat'. I would always be incomplete things if this go on, and my maker Ricci had been struggled with sleep this past few days just for make something that can resembled the 'heart beat' whenever he tried something new it's hurt so bad. But crying couldn't help, my tears would only freeze in 

He suddenly coughing, he barely drag his head up to look. He was short of breath, seemingly on the edge of a cough attack as he leaned heavily against the balcony.

"Look."

Ricci was addressing his hand to the wide opened window. Then, the fireworks suddenly lit up, little sparks of light burst in the air as the noise, louder than thunder, they shone brightly, like stars, and then faded after a moment into nothingness, little dots of light were fading leaving only the depressing sky.

"I'm sorry you were born, I'm sorry I annoyed you, I'm sorry I pestered you,I'm sorry I hindered you, I'm sorry you ever wait for me, I'm sorry I'm so weak, I'm sorry I didn't succeed, I'm sorry I for everything, thank you for believed in me, thank you to had been by my side, thank you for made me learned how to love my life, thank you for never gave up on us, thank you for everything. but most of all sorry, I'll left you alone. I made you because I was lonely and now I think I will make you feel the same way that I did."

I turn around when he stopped, and found Ricci was laying, smiled at me and a fresh tear slid down one cheek as his soft voice whispered ecstatically.

"I hope you'll take what we've been searching for."

He pointed his chest, and laughed softly before all of the sound gone and replaced by my guilty sound.

to be continued...